How many kinds of love exist out there?
According to my favorite book "The Notebook" by Nicholas Sparks, there is love that never die and only happens once in a lifetime. In the book, Noah and Allie was always meant to be. Although they separated for 14 years after a summer full of love, they found their ways back to each other. I first read the book when I was 18 years old, an age that I was full of love, hope, passion, and curiosity.
6 years later since I have read the book, I picked up my longtime favorite book recently again and started to read it again. The story was still beautiful but I also realized that the novel only focused on the beautiful part, or had I being only 18 years old only focused on the beautiful part at the time? I saw something different this time. After Allie broke up with Lon 3 weeks before their wedding day, I wonder how Lon's life had became. The love of his life, the one girl that he was going to marry in 3 weeks, left for someone who had not been in her life for 14 years. For Lon, his heart probably broke into unrecognizable pieces. I wonder if Lon was able to love again after Allie.
According to me, love existed but probably won't again in the future. I am not sure if love only happens once in a lifetime, but I am unable to even be happy. It has been nearly 6 months and I am still unable to move on. I still have no courage to throw out everything and delete all the pictures. I question myself every morning. I ask myself a reason for not letting me move on, I ask myself a purpose to stay this unhappy. I am often able to find myself answers to those questions, but unfortunately time never waits and life just goes on, despite one being happy or unhappy.
Every time I try to run back to where I thought I belong, I always find myself in tears, in fear, in pain, and alone.
Or, I simply just cry too much.
